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New journal if you wish to add me. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) musiclovenlife
Yes that's right, i'm back!
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[14 Jun 2006|08:06pm] |
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This day just keeps getting worse and worse.
It's 8 and Amanda still hasnt gotten out of training. So I won't be seeing her today either I guess, unless she spends the night or something..
Oh yeah and we just got the creepiest letter in the mail, no return address that basically said to my sister watch out cause my mom and her boyfriend might be "closer then you think", which is freaking rediculous anyone who knows my mom knows that would never happen. It's so weird and random, I don't even understand people. I HATE PEOPLE. I know it's not threatening but it's creeping me out so much..
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Can this day please just get better from here? Please?
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| PalmHarborFest 2006 Baby.. |
[21 May 2006|11:15pm] |
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Delegates - Dark Sound |
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It was good to see my roomie again and the Orlando loves of my life. We just hung out, ate food, watched Friends(tradition), went to Round Up(there's one in Tampa too) and I tried to do the dances but couldn't but life is too short so I danced like no one was watching it was fun. Today on the way back we stopped in St.Pete I got to see Grandma Conway(my Dad's mom) who doesn't travel so basically this is the first time i've seen here in 3 1/2 years which sucks cause she's so darn cute she's like my cutest Grandma. We talked for like two hours and it made me happy I asked to see pictures and I got to see my Dad as a baby(he was so cute!) and my Grandma in her twenties, it's so crazy but so amazing. After we went to Hardrock to see Nikki at work and get food and my mom met us there and ate with us and stuff and yeah it was a good weekend. I see my Amanda tomorrow and Justin too cause he's coming down from Vero YAY! I haven't seen either of them in too long. That's not right!! JAXSON'S ICE CREAM TOMORROW NIGHT YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I have the biggest sweet tooth. OH I drove home from Hardrock which meant highwayness and I did it! It's slowly getting less scary. I really want to like take the car out and practice driving by myself. I wish I wasn't so dang scared! I start work Tuesday morning, anyone gonna be in Boca that day? I think I work till 4, come get a smoothie and say HI!! I won't be able to snag free smoothies for people, I don't think at least..i'm sorry! But hey I love you still, okay?
Other things are sucking hardcore right now. But it takes to much energy to get heartache's and in the end I end up realizing how much of a waste of time it was. So i'm trying not to think about it and smiling as if everything's okay..
Love you guys!
Katy
P.S. The Delegates rock, check them out..thank you and goodnight!
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[18 Feb 2006|03:56am] |
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Ok so the things I want in life:
To be happy
Yeah yeah everybody wants that..and many people are quick to surrender to the hell that life can be.
You have to work for happiness, it won't just come to you.
( They say that for wishes to come true you need to make them heard..so here are mine.. )
I am so much farther from finding myself then I thought and scary as that is it's okay because i'm still molding into who I want to be and if I change styles, or music, or anything it's not because i'm posing as something i'm not it's because i'm becoming who i'm meant and want to be.
Amanda sent me once, one of my favorite quotes:
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.-George Bernard Shaw
It's true, I used to think by doing certain things I was just hiding who I was but it isn't, it was something I liked so I did it, or I wore it, or I listened to it. I'm just becoming me.
Stacy commented earlier about how the way you feel is how most others percieve you(hope I got that right Stace!) and it made me feel better and worse at the same time. I get in these sad/down moods and I feel trapped in and it's dumb and it sucks. There's no point hating who I am, or wishing to be someone different because it's not gonna happen. When I really look at myself in the mirror I like who I see. I'm a good person who is beautiful inside and out[in a very nonegotistical way]. I can do so much and accomplish so much and i'm going to. I have the most amazing friends in the world and if I can count them on one hand then i'm SO lucky, but I can't even begin to count the good friends I have on both of my hands. I'm so incredibly lucky.
I'm lonely, yes. I want to be in a relationship, yes more then anything. But being that desperate is STUPID because i'll end up in a relationship i'm not supposed to be in, that won't work out because i'm only with them to be with somebody. As sad as it is to say that's how both of my relationships were. I was with them because they wanted to be with me and I was lonely and that made me attracted to the idea of us beign together. They both ended, I was hurt and it was stupid. I had to learn those lessons though.
I'm done looking, i'm seriously SICK of it! It's time they find me..
I'm done trying to get people to like me, I think it makes them like me less..if you want to get to know me then that's rad! Almost everybody who really really knows me think i'm pretty cool kid, so i've heard. The problem is most people don't give me that chance, well screw you then. That's fine..
I'm sick of hiding who I really am at fear of who will think what of me.
I have my insecurities, my imperfections, my blond moments..
They make me who I am. You hate it? Fine I don't care enough to try and impress you.
You like it?
Then hey my name's Katy, if we're not friends yet..we should be.
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[27 Oct 2005|06:11pm] |
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I'm smiling big, but i'm not saying a word cause if I do i'm afraid i'll jinx everything.[No there's no boy, sadly lol.]
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